Life- A walk on the beach

                    Did you ever have to make a BIG decision in life? Something that could probably play a major role in defining your life, in defining where you’d go and what you’d be. An important decision. Yes? Okay. And have you ever been in self doubt? Doubted your own choices? I guess, that’s a yes too. Happens to most of us. We willingly come to a conclusion and then question our own choices.

              One day I made this very casual decision (casual for me, not for my family). I decided to study abroad. I was super fascinated by the idea of leaving the country and living independently. Some unknown force pulled me towards the idea and compelled me to do so. Well, after a crazy turn of events, here I am. In the US of A. Away from home, away from family and maybe one step closer to my dreams.

                     
                A new place, a new beginning, new friends, new home, new life. So yeah, coping with all the new-ness, I decide to take a quiet walk to the nearby pond. Millions of thoughts in mind, innumerable memories, several unanswered questions. All these colliding with each other in my head, one thought leading to another and that one taking me to some faint memory hidden at the back of my head. An idle yet occupied mind does that. This topsy-turvy thought process, got my thoughts choking on a similar day like this when I was walking along the beach.

Our life is so much like a walk on the beach..

                The waves reaching for the shore but refusing to kiss it, the sunset, the breeze. There is beauty in everything around us. In fact, we are surrounded by the magic of the universe. Maybe we are just too blind to notice it. ‘Cause our search for unknown things never ends. We are always in search of  something. Most of us are on a wild goose chase. We don’t know what we’re looking for and those who claim to know what they want, do they really know? We just look around aimlessly, not able to define our search and letting go of a lot of precious things in this process, hoping to find something more valuable. In life, we ignore the people who chase us and chase those who ignore us. Weird.

                    

                That evening at the beach, it was getting dark after the sunset, but there was light, I could almost kiss the stars for shining so bright. The beauty of the beach begged me to stay a little longer. I knew it was pointless but it was beautiful and I couldn’t resist the overwhelming urge to gaze at the waves. I was so lost in the sound of the water gushing at the shore. But I had to walk back.

                Few decisions in life are hard to make. The most difficult ones are to choose between what you WANT and what you NEED, when to hold on an when to let go, when to say yes and when to say no, when to go ahead and when to stop. Surprisingly, there isn’t a right or wrong answer to all these questions. Your choices define your path. You set your priorities and you know what’s important for you, when.

                Like, I could just sit back at the beach and gaze at the beauty that surrounds me or I could conveniently walk back.

               No matter what you decide for yourself, YOU ARE RIGHT. Don’t repent. Don’t cry over the spilt milk. You can’t go back in time and change anything, so just go with the flow. Don’t fret.

              Just keep walking. Life is a never ending shore, you can’t see the end of the shore now. There’s a long way to go. You don't know when you'll stop, so put your best foot front each time. Walk along.

Topsy turvy life..

             

               Who wouldn’t want a picture perfect life? Where only nice n happy things happened to people.. No villains or vamps.. No gloomy stuff.. All sadness subtracted.. Like a fairy tale.

               

                But who are we kidding? Life’s a b*#%h! It’s unpredictable. One moment it gives you immense happiness and the next moment it crowns you the queen/king of all sorrows. Makes you laugh. Makes you cry. Watches you fall flat on your face and also watches you rise & shine bright like a diamond. Shows you a happy sunny day and then puts you through a dark stormy night. One moment you feel like you rule the world and the other moment you feel like an abandoned lay person. It gives you the best and worst possible moments to live with.

             

              Life is not perfect, but how you polish yourself and grow during the journey, makes all those imperfections look perfect.              

             “You are the author of your own story, your life”. How true! You define your life. Your choices.. Your decisions.. And all choices need not be necessarily right. You are human and to commit mistakes, is human.

               You must’ve chosen the wrong company in school. Or dated the wrong guy/girl in college. It must be hard to decide whether to study further or work after once you graduate. There are times you don’t know whether to hold on or let go of things/people. YOU MIGHT CHOOSE TO DO SOMETHING YOU WERE NOT SUPPOSED TO. You might have taken up the wrong job when you had the right one in hand.. Pushed away someone who loved you, to be with someone you love.. Let your family and friends down. Done all possible things you shouldn’t have..

              

               But then, isn’t life a process of learning and unlearning? Can’t you commit mistakes and correct them once you realize? Yes, you can! All you need is courage to do that. No matter how much you screwed up in the past, you just have to take a step forward and do everything it takes to undo the damage. You don’t have to keep paying for one wrong decision you made. You don’t have to go all the way when you’ve taken the road not taken, you can always trace your path back and start all over again. Its never too late! 

P.S. To walk within the lines, would make your life so boring. Take chances, go to the extremes, feel alive! Don’t repent.. Don’t regret.. Live every moment of your life to the fullest.. You never know what the next moment has got in store for you :)

Memories I treasure..

Final year of graduation. And I must say, time really flies!  

           Like people say, you only start to value things in their absence. How true! The semester is almost come to an end and now most of us are attempting to compensate for all the fun we probably missed having in the past 3 years.

          The first day of college still feels so fresh. Every year was so different, from being a fresher to being a senior and now the senior most in college, it was all a happy experience! Actually, not always happy. I’m sure everyone must’ve had their share of ups and downs, patch ups and fights, laughs and tears, friends and foes, crushes and heartbreaks. But then, at the end of the day, all we remember is the fun we had.

          When we first stepped into the college, most of us dint have the slightest clue regarding what’s in store for us. Initially, college was exciting then we went on cribbing about every possible thing in it, not ‘cause it was bad but ‘cause all we wanted to do was have fun and that dint really go well with our management. Did that stop us from going to college? HELL NO! Thanks to “attendance”, our old friend. Haha.. And no matter how much we despised college, we’ll always like it for bringing to us those strangers who are now our friends for life.

           Time is so unpredictable. People who were once best friends are now bitter enemies and those who dint like each other very much, went on to become inseparable friends. And I must say, there are times when close ones got closer. We hardly have control over such things. In fact, we never estimate the length of our fluctuating friend list. It’s all a part of the journey.

            Experienced a lot of ‘first times’ during graduation. I still remember my first bunk, the first time I boarded the rtc bus and I can never forget getting into a bus full of seniors waiting to rag me on the very second day at college. Getting ragged and deciding not to rag any fresher when we became seniors, well, that dint last long. Knocking the door of the final year class and running away like crazy in the corridors. Did the most unimaginable things. And of course, our canteens, juice centres.. Everybody’s fav, “Pandey Bhai”, who left us heart broken when he took away his food stall. I almost thought I’d starve to death without his food. But like everything else, we got over that too. Assignments. Mid-terms. Seminars. College fests. Finally, semester exams followed by the results. AND I’ll stop right there. *wink*

             The college has become a part of our routine and now we need to find something to do, there is no where we HAVE TO be every morning. No matter how much we hated the monotonous nature of our graduation life, that is something that we’ll all miss the most now and the bus journey, which initially seemed tiring but later became something that we waited for after a hectic day at college. That's almost come to an end now. It's time we make the most of the remaining time. 

            I'd love to thank everybody who made me smile, i forgive everyone who hurt me and i apologize to everyone whom i hurt. Lets all stay in good terms with everybody, at least good enough to exchange a smile when we meet somewhere outside college. I'll miss college and all those whom i smile at and all those who smile at me. No hard feeling. No regrets. 

Love,
Monisha :)